A Special Night With Demi Lovato

You can tell that Demi Lovato has been and always will be my favorite singer ever. And I've seen this quote "Dreams do come true" all my life, and YES, DREAMS DO COME TRUE you all. On March 24 I. MET. DEMI. LOVATO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I never know how it feels like to meet someone you look up to so freaking much, and meet someone who inspire you in so many ways. I honestly hard to remember how it feels like that day, because the amount of happiness and craziness was collide. Like, I can't imagine, all this time I just see her on my tv screen, or internet, twitter, or something like that, but that day, she was just 5 feets away from me and I could see her face clearly. She is so freaking beautiful and stunning. Her skin was flawless. And when you thought you just can hear her voice through your headset, I just can't describe how great her LIVE voice was. She killed all the high notes in all her amazing songs.  

As all people that know I adore Demi Lovato maybe don't know about this. I love Demi not because her beautiful face and amazing voice and songs, maybe at first YES, but when she shared her story about how she stands up for bullying and how she dealt with eating disorders because of cruel society but can stand up higher and get help and get better and better that moment when the amount of my respect for her increase. She also decided to share her story instead of lying about it to the media so she could help another girl who deal with the same issue to get help and get better. She inspires me to always feel beautiful and to not letting people bring me down. 

I can't believe that I could have this opportunity to hear her sang Skyscraper LIVE because that song gave me big impact  of my perpective on something. 

And also Give Your Heart a Break, Heart Attack, and all of her songs too, and all I can tell is SHE GOT THAT VOICE and ATTITUDE!

Thank you Demi, for everything you though me and for this amazing experience to see you live in concert. Maybe I didnt get a lesson about how to bring myself up, how to always feel beautiful, and how to accept my imperfection, but through you and your story, I could. 

And btw, can I have that boots?

Watch Demi Lovato Official Lyric Video for "HEART ATTACK"

Demi on stage in Jakarta

Demi at soundcheck in Jakarta

Demi on stage in Manila

Demi on stage in Manila (with her famous hair flip)

"21 Guns" By Green Day

Do you know what's worth fighting for?

When it's not worth dying for?

Does it take your breath away and you feel yourself suffocating?

Does the pain weigh out the pride?

And you look for a place to hide?

Did someone break your heart inside,you're in ruins

One, 21 Guns

Lay down your arms

Give up the fight

One, 21 Guns

Throw up your arms into the sky

You and I ...

When you're at the end of the road

And you lost all sense of control

And your thoughts have taken their toll

When your mind breaks the spirit of your soul

Your faith walks on broken glass and the hangover doesn't pass

Nothing's ever built to last, you're in ruins

One, 21 Guns

Lay down your arms

Give up the fight

One, 21 Guns

Throw up your arms into the sky

You and I ...

Did you try to live on your own?

When you burned down the house and home?

Did you stand too close to the fire?

Like a liar looking for forgiveness from a stone

When it's time to live and let die

And you can't get another try

Something inside this heart has died,you're in ruins

One, 21 Guns

Lay down your arms

Give up the fight

One, 21 Guns

Throw up your arms into the sky

One, 21 Guns

Lay down your arms

Give up the fight

One, 21 Guns

Throw up your arms into the sky

You and I

"Istimewa Itu Kamu. . ."

"Jika aku adalah selembar kertas kosong
Berarti kamu itu crayon berwarna. . ."

"Jika aku adalah langit gelap
Berarti kamu itu bintang. . ."


Jika aku terkadang buta akan apa yang sebenarnya ingin ku katakan padanya,
Tuhan. . .
sampaikan bahwa aku bersyukur ia 'datang'

sampaikan padanya jika aku memiliki kekuatan super, aku bisa membantunya lebih daripada ini

sampaikan padanya bahwa ia menginspirasiku untuk menjadi lebih baik dan dewasa

sampaikan padanya bahwa masalah yang datang, bukan untuk menghancurkan, tapi memperkuat

sampaikan padanya bahwa segala kemarahanku, bukan karena benci, tapi peduli

sampaikan padanya bahwa ia adalah seseorang yang mampu membantuku berdiri dan melawan dunia

sampaikan padanya bahwa segala memori yang ia tancapkan diotak-ku itu indah

sampaikan padanya bahwa ketika mereka melihat rendah kearahnya, I'm not going anywhere

sampaikan padanya bahwa ia istimewa

sampaikan padanya bahwa ia bisa taklukan dunia ; )

sampaikan padanya bahwa kerja keras dan membuktikan kesuksesan suatu hari nanti adalah cara terbaik untuk balas dendam

sampaikan padanya bahwa aku ingin mengenalnya hingga rambutnya memutih

sampaikan bahwa aku mencintainya. . .




"Tuhan, tidak ada lagi tempat untuk menampung segala pilu with a fair judgement rather than You.
Lindungilah dia. . .
Kelilingi dia dengan segala yang terbaik
Mudahkanlah segala urusan-nya, Tuhan. . ."



Dear you my unbelievable guy, 
I'm happy to know the fact that you are mine and you stay with me until now. There will be times when I'll feel weak and hopeless, but you are my strength  and I'm going to live my life day by day knowing that I have one person I can count on and knowing I have a shoulder to cry on. 

With you, I have courage for standing tall to see the whole world.
Thank you. . .

For the best person I've ever admired after my mom, DEMI LOVATO

My friend who can read mind once told me that I was not comfortable with my ownself, was not satisfied with my own skin. I have no confident. If there was a person who judge me, I could drown in their words about me. Because of that, I was sometimes losing my self.

Honestly, all the things on my mind that my friend read is just correct. There are some times that I am not comfortable with my self. I've written lot of articles in here on my blog about how happy I am being my self, or how grateful I am for everything in my body, in my life. I DO feel thankful for that, but, honestly, deep down in my heart there's a little space that say, I'm not.

Back then when I was in elementry school, there was name-calling for me, bad one. And when I was in middle school, there was a guy that decided to stay away from me, didn't call me anymore because I was pimpled. I dont know maybe that time was the beginning of all this 'things'. Untill now I'm in high school, I live my life with ups and downs, like everybody else, but I feel something in 'here' is just so wrong.

Then your song "Skyscraper" came out. I read the lyric. And I was like, this song is a typical song that I can releate to. I'm in love with this powerfull ballad.

Then I started to watch your interview about

how you overcome with your life, about your fighting with your "self acceptance" problem, I was inspired a lot.

I am not doing self harm, because I have no courage of doing that which is something I'm very very grateful for. But Demi, you inspired me to stay strong, to always feel beautiful and to always remember that every single one of us is beautiful.

It is not that easy to do what I've learned from you, but as you already said, that it is daily battle. When there is one day I can feel beautiful before I go to school, or feeling happy and throw my pain outside my window, or going through my day without feeling bad for being myself...........than I can tell myself that I success, that I'm the winner.

Demi, you have courage that not all the people in the world have. You are strong. And I want you to know that you are inspiring tons of girls to love our self and be postive.

It's hard we all know, but I'm on my way to build my courage too. I'm strong. And I am staying strong with you, and with all the people in the world who feel the same.

Thank you so much for your honesty and for being a great role model for young girls, including me. I'm not gonna love my self, my body every single time, but I have to, so I try and be grateful for it. And thank you for making your self become someone who will say "stop, it is not good" or "it will be ok.."

Thank you, Demi. You are beautiful.

Sincerely, your lovatic.

Kenapa California, Amerika Serikat?!

"Ya Allah, semoga besok pagi, saya buka mata dalam keadaan bukan di sini. Semoga, saya transfer dengan orang yang tinggal di California, Amerika Serikat sana. Semoga saya sekolah disana, semoga hidup saya di sini tuh cuma mimpi. Bangunkan saya dalam keadaan seperti itu ya Allah. Amin."

Tau ga, kalo kata-kata di atas tadi pernah menjadi ucapan do'a saya sebelum tidur. Kayanya ini akibat dari terlalu banyak jalan-jalan di dunia twitter deh, atau karena terlalu mengidolakan artis luar negeri mungkin, atau karena memang saya penggemar film barat, dan otomatis saya membayangkan sekolah seperti di film yang saya tonton. And that school in film is exactly what I wanted ;)

Kenapa California, Amerika Serikat? Soalnya disana gudangnya artis dunia. Mau nonton konsernya Demi Lovato? Gampang. Konsernya Avril Lavigne? Gampang. Kalo ada duit sih itu juga hehe. Tapi serius deh, saya pengen banget bisa tinggal disana. Dan, kalo saya bisa tinggal disana, Hollywood itu deket. Which means, I could meet a couple actors in movie I watch this whole time, Jhonny Depp? Check. Kristen Stewart? Check. Emma Stone? Tottaly check.

I'm not the only one btw,

saya sering kepikiran pengen hidup di belahan dunia selain Indonesia. I mean, saya pernah bilang sama diri sendiri, "I wish, hidup saya ga disini. I wish ketika saya bangun tidur, saya kebangun dengan keadaan kamar yang berbeda, cuaca yang berbeda, sekolah yang berbeda, AND once again, I wish I finally realize that I live in California.."

Pernah ada saatnya keberuntungan itu jauh dari tangan saya, otomotasi ngebuat saya susah untuk bersyukur. Itu lah latar belakang dibalik kenapa saya punya keinginan tinggal dan hidup berbeda.

Tapi, tapi, tapi.....

Orang tua saya, terutama mama, selalu ngajarin saya untuk bersyukur. Emang

ga secara langsung di ucapkan, "Kamu harus beryukur Nadia!" Ga kaya gitu, tapi mama saya tuh selalu tegar dalam keadaan apa pun, selalu senang, dan itu yang jadi bahan ajar saya untuk belajar bersyukur.

Keinginan gila saya untuk "Hidup berbeda" dari sekarang itu masih ada, tapi saya tetep cinta Indonesia kok dan sadar bahwa hidup saya, including my family and friend itu tuh udah keren banget, tapi kalo tetep mimpi untuk tinggal di California, AS ga ada salahnya juga kan? Hehehe :)

My Favorite Songs, What's behind it?

Musik itu ibarat udara. Untuk beberapa orang di belahan dunia, musik itu yang bikin mereka 'feeling alive'.

Musik/lagu itu kaya 'The Untold Story'.

Musik/lagu itu meningkatkan kreativitas kita.

Musik/lagu itu cerminan perasaan kita.

Dan musik/lagu itu kadang emang yang bikin kita FEELING ALIVE!

Setiap orang pasti punya beberapa lagu yang punya arti tersendiri buat hari-harinya.

Here is the list of a couple songs that get me through the fun, the bad, and the ugly day...

1. Fix A Heart by Demi Lovato.

Ini lagu udah kaya "my best cure" pokoknya. Nada lagunya keren, suara yang bawain-nya TOTAL, liriknya juga awesome.

My favorite line : "You can bandage the damage, you never really can fix a heart..."

2. Smile by Avril Lavigne

Lagu yang bikin saya semangat. Buat saya pribadi, ini lagunya bikin saya feeling free to do what I love (dengan penuh tanggung jawab & batasan normal tentunya).

My favorite line : "You know that I'm a crazy bit**, I do what I want when I feel like it..."

3. Beautiful by Bethany Dillon

There are some times that I feel uncomfortable being my own self, and this song help me to throw that feeling outta me. Lagunya simpel, tapi makna keren. Oh dan bikin kita berpikir positif!

My favorite line : "I love to hear you say, who I am is quite enough. You make me worthy of love and beautiful..."

4. All Night Long by Demi Lovato feat Missy Elliot and Timbaland

Lagu yang pasti saya puter kalo lagi ngerjain sesuatu, kaya misalnya kalo lagi ngepel rumah setiap hari minggu, atau kalo lagi ngerjain tugas-tugas sekolah. Sebenernya ga cuma lagu ini yang saya suka dari album barunya Demi, masih ada 'Give Your Heart A Break', 'Who's That Boy', 'You're My Only Shorty', 'Unbroken', dan I almost like all the songs of her new album.

My favorite line : "I like you, put your number, put your number on my phone, phone, phone, phone, phone, phone, phone, yeah..."

5. Skyscraper by Demi Lovato

God, I LOVE this song. This song is like my anthem of life. Kadang kan kita suka ngerasa ada orang yang ga suka sama kita, atau ada orang yang ingin bikin kita down, atau kita lagi ngerasa hopeless and butuh penyemangat, ini lagu yang pas!

My favorite line : "You can take everything I have, you can break everything I am, like I made of glass, like I made of paper. Go on and try to bring me down, I will be rising from the ground like a skyscraper..."

6. Your Song by Elthon John (Casey Abrams Version)

Lagunya simple, tapi ngena. Such a beautiful love song. Aww :) whenever I hear this song, I feel happy and touched ;)

My favorite line : "I hope you don't mind that I put down in words. How wonderful life is while you're in the world..."

That is how I live my life with songs, it is hard to be positive all the time, to be in control all the time, to be kind and sociable all the time with people, and these songs, sometimes could be the best medicine if I need one.

And one thing you and I have to know that we dont live our life for another people, we live for us, for ourselves. Do what you wanna do, people making mistake, that's natural. Let it flow aja tinggal gimana caranya kita bertanggung jawab sama diri sendiri. :D Enjoy!

PS: I credit Demi Lovato for being such a great role model. I adore her, and always wish her for the best.

*sigh*

Aku tidak pernah benar-benar melupakanmu.

Aku pernah, bahkan sering berpikir, apakah hal yang aku ingat juga kamu ingat.

Ini bukan tentang bagaimana kamu harus bersikap lagi.

Aku lihat apa yang ku lihat setiap harinya.

Aku dengar apa yang ku dengar setiap detik aku disana.

Jika raport sekolah tentang seberapa pintar kamu berpura-pura, aku cabut gelar itu dari mereka yang pintar dalam akademis sesungguhnya.

Aku benar-benar ingin jujur, setidaknya pada diriku sendiri, tapi kegiatan melihat dan mendengar membuatku kehilangan apa yang menjadi tumpuanku.

Kadang aku membenci mereka yang TIDAK tahu.

Mereka yang tidak tahu dan dengan enteng mendorongmu membuat suatu ikatan yang aku benci.

Mereka tertawa, senang, bahagia karena mereka TIDAK tahu.

Apa jadinya jika mereka semua tahu?

Bagaimana dengan aku?

Duduk disana, melakukan kegiatan itu lagi. Melihat dan mendengar.

Ikut tertawa seadanya, sebisa yang aku mampu.

Berlaga bahwa aku biasa saja, bisa kamu lihat aku harus sekolah acting jika harus terus seperti ini.

Kamu tahu, tawa paksa itu rasanya aneh, seperti makan kacang dengan kulitnya. Atau makan daging ayam dan kamu telan dengan tulang-tulangnya.

Aku tidak lagi mengharapkan sesuatu kembali lagi seperti dulu. Sumpah, aku bosan.

Aku hanya ingin, aku mohon, tolong berhenti. Setidaknya jangan dihadapanku.......