For the best person I've ever admired after my mom, DEMI LOVATO

My friend who can read mind once told me that I was not comfortable with my ownself, was not satisfied with my own skin. I have no confident. If there was a person who judge me, I could drown in their words about me. Because of that, I was sometimes losing my self.

Honestly, all the things on my mind that my friend read is just correct. There are some times that I am not comfortable with my self. I've written lot of articles in here on my blog about how happy I am being my self, or how grateful I am for everything in my body, in my life. I DO feel thankful for that, but, honestly, deep down in my heart there's a little space that say, I'm not.

Back then when I was in elementry school, there was name-calling for me, bad one. And when I was in middle school, there was a guy that decided to stay away from me, didn't call me anymore because I was pimpled. I dont know maybe that time was the beginning of all this 'things'. Untill now I'm in high school, I live my life with ups and downs, like everybody else, but I feel something in 'here' is just so wrong.

Then your song "Skyscraper" came out. I read the lyric. And I was like, this song is a typical song that I can releate to. I'm in love with this powerfull ballad.

Then I started to watch your interview about

how you overcome with your life, about your fighting with your "self acceptance" problem, I was inspired a lot.

I am not doing self harm, because I have no courage of doing that which is something I'm very very grateful for. But Demi, you inspired me to stay strong, to always feel beautiful and to always remember that every single one of us is beautiful.

It is not that easy to do what I've learned from you, but as you already said, that it is daily battle. When there is one day I can feel beautiful before I go to school, or feeling happy and throw my pain outside my window, or going through my day without feeling bad for being myself...........than I can tell myself that I success, that I'm the winner.

Demi, you have courage that not all the people in the world have. You are strong. And I want you to know that you are inspiring tons of girls to love our self and be postive.

It's hard we all know, but I'm on my way to build my courage too. I'm strong. And I am staying strong with you, and with all the people in the world who feel the same.

Thank you so much for your honesty and for being a great role model for young girls, including me. I'm not gonna love my self, my body every single time, but I have to, so I try and be grateful for it. And thank you for making your self become someone who will say "stop, it is not good" or "it will be ok.."

Thank you, Demi. You are beautiful.

Sincerely, your lovatic.

Kenapa California, Amerika Serikat?!

"Ya Allah, semoga besok pagi, saya buka mata dalam keadaan bukan di sini. Semoga, saya transfer dengan orang yang tinggal di California, Amerika Serikat sana. Semoga saya sekolah disana, semoga hidup saya di sini tuh cuma mimpi. Bangunkan saya dalam keadaan seperti itu ya Allah. Amin."

Tau ga, kalo kata-kata di atas tadi pernah menjadi ucapan do'a saya sebelum tidur. Kayanya ini akibat dari terlalu banyak jalan-jalan di dunia twitter deh, atau karena terlalu mengidolakan artis luar negeri mungkin, atau karena memang saya penggemar film barat, dan otomatis saya membayangkan sekolah seperti di film yang saya tonton. And that school in film is exactly what I wanted ;)

Kenapa California, Amerika Serikat? Soalnya disana gudangnya artis dunia. Mau nonton konsernya Demi Lovato? Gampang. Konsernya Avril Lavigne? Gampang. Kalo ada duit sih itu juga hehe. Tapi serius deh, saya pengen banget bisa tinggal disana. Dan, kalo saya bisa tinggal disana, Hollywood itu deket. Which means, I could meet a couple actors in movie I watch this whole time, Jhonny Depp? Check. Kristen Stewart? Check. Emma Stone? Tottaly check.

I'm not the only one btw,

saya sering kepikiran pengen hidup di belahan dunia selain Indonesia. I mean, saya pernah bilang sama diri sendiri, "I wish, hidup saya ga disini. I wish ketika saya bangun tidur, saya kebangun dengan keadaan kamar yang berbeda, cuaca yang berbeda, sekolah yang berbeda, AND once again, I wish I finally realize that I live in California.."

Pernah ada saatnya keberuntungan itu jauh dari tangan saya, otomotasi ngebuat saya susah untuk bersyukur. Itu lah latar belakang dibalik kenapa saya punya keinginan tinggal dan hidup berbeda.

Tapi, tapi, tapi.....

Orang tua saya, terutama mama, selalu ngajarin saya untuk bersyukur. Emang

ga secara langsung di ucapkan, "Kamu harus beryukur Nadia!" Ga kaya gitu, tapi mama saya tuh selalu tegar dalam keadaan apa pun, selalu senang, dan itu yang jadi bahan ajar saya untuk belajar bersyukur.

Keinginan gila saya untuk "Hidup berbeda" dari sekarang itu masih ada, tapi saya tetep cinta Indonesia kok dan sadar bahwa hidup saya, including my family and friend itu tuh udah keren banget, tapi kalo tetep mimpi untuk tinggal di California, AS ga ada salahnya juga kan? Hehehe :)

My Favorite Songs, What's behind it?

Musik itu ibarat udara. Untuk beberapa orang di belahan dunia, musik itu yang bikin mereka 'feeling alive'.

Musik/lagu itu kaya 'The Untold Story'.

Musik/lagu itu meningkatkan kreativitas kita.

Musik/lagu itu cerminan perasaan kita.

Dan musik/lagu itu kadang emang yang bikin kita FEELING ALIVE!

Setiap orang pasti punya beberapa lagu yang punya arti tersendiri buat hari-harinya.

Here is the list of a couple songs that get me through the fun, the bad, and the ugly day...

1. Fix A Heart by Demi Lovato.

Ini lagu udah kaya "my best cure" pokoknya. Nada lagunya keren, suara yang bawain-nya TOTAL, liriknya juga awesome.

My favorite line : "You can bandage the damage, you never really can fix a heart..."

2. Smile by Avril Lavigne

Lagu yang bikin saya semangat. Buat saya pribadi, ini lagunya bikin saya feeling free to do what I love (dengan penuh tanggung jawab & batasan normal tentunya).

My favorite line : "You know that I'm a crazy bit**, I do what I want when I feel like it..."

3. Beautiful by Bethany Dillon

There are some times that I feel uncomfortable being my own self, and this song help me to throw that feeling outta me. Lagunya simpel, tapi makna keren. Oh dan bikin kita berpikir positif!

My favorite line : "I love to hear you say, who I am is quite enough. You make me worthy of love and beautiful..."

4. All Night Long by Demi Lovato feat Missy Elliot and Timbaland

Lagu yang pasti saya puter kalo lagi ngerjain sesuatu, kaya misalnya kalo lagi ngepel rumah setiap hari minggu, atau kalo lagi ngerjain tugas-tugas sekolah. Sebenernya ga cuma lagu ini yang saya suka dari album barunya Demi, masih ada 'Give Your Heart A Break', 'Who's That Boy', 'You're My Only Shorty', 'Unbroken', dan I almost like all the songs of her new album.

My favorite line : "I like you, put your number, put your number on my phone, phone, phone, phone, phone, phone, phone, yeah..."

5. Skyscraper by Demi Lovato

God, I LOVE this song. This song is like my anthem of life. Kadang kan kita suka ngerasa ada orang yang ga suka sama kita, atau ada orang yang ingin bikin kita down, atau kita lagi ngerasa hopeless and butuh penyemangat, ini lagu yang pas!

My favorite line : "You can take everything I have, you can break everything I am, like I made of glass, like I made of paper. Go on and try to bring me down, I will be rising from the ground like a skyscraper..."

6. Your Song by Elthon John (Casey Abrams Version)

Lagunya simple, tapi ngena. Such a beautiful love song. Aww :) whenever I hear this song, I feel happy and touched ;)

My favorite line : "I hope you don't mind that I put down in words. How wonderful life is while you're in the world..."

That is how I live my life with songs, it is hard to be positive all the time, to be in control all the time, to be kind and sociable all the time with people, and these songs, sometimes could be the best medicine if I need one.

And one thing you and I have to know that we dont live our life for another people, we live for us, for ourselves. Do what you wanna do, people making mistake, that's natural. Let it flow aja tinggal gimana caranya kita bertanggung jawab sama diri sendiri. :D Enjoy!

PS: I credit Demi Lovato for being such a great role model. I adore her, and always wish her for the best.

*sigh*

Aku tidak pernah benar-benar melupakanmu.

Aku pernah, bahkan sering berpikir, apakah hal yang aku ingat juga kamu ingat.

Ini bukan tentang bagaimana kamu harus bersikap lagi.

Aku lihat apa yang ku lihat setiap harinya.

Aku dengar apa yang ku dengar setiap detik aku disana.

Jika raport sekolah tentang seberapa pintar kamu berpura-pura, aku cabut gelar itu dari mereka yang pintar dalam akademis sesungguhnya.

Aku benar-benar ingin jujur, setidaknya pada diriku sendiri, tapi kegiatan melihat dan mendengar membuatku kehilangan apa yang menjadi tumpuanku.

Kadang aku membenci mereka yang TIDAK tahu.

Mereka yang tidak tahu dan dengan enteng mendorongmu membuat suatu ikatan yang aku benci.

Mereka tertawa, senang, bahagia karena mereka TIDAK tahu.

Apa jadinya jika mereka semua tahu?

Bagaimana dengan aku?

Duduk disana, melakukan kegiatan itu lagi. Melihat dan mendengar.

Ikut tertawa seadanya, sebisa yang aku mampu.

Berlaga bahwa aku biasa saja, bisa kamu lihat aku harus sekolah acting jika harus terus seperti ini.

Kamu tahu, tawa paksa itu rasanya aneh, seperti makan kacang dengan kulitnya. Atau makan daging ayam dan kamu telan dengan tulang-tulangnya.

Aku tidak lagi mengharapkan sesuatu kembali lagi seperti dulu. Sumpah, aku bosan.

Aku hanya ingin, aku mohon, tolong berhenti. Setidaknya jangan dihadapanku.......

Demi Lovato "UNBROKEN"

DEMILOVATO

I'm so proud of what she has become, of what she is today. I'm so happy to see that she is more healthier and much more happier now.
With single called 'Skyscraper' she re-build her career, and it works so great.
'Skyscraper' is really an amazing song, and she already did 'skyscraper' performance, and done it beautifully. She's such a gorgeous girl.

And I'm so glad she is still standing strong. I'm so glad that Demi told her story to all of us so she can help every single person to find hope and to never give up. I'm so glad she's back to music industry and let people know what she's capable of, she has talent, is a supernormal singer. I'm so glad all people around the world (lovatics) still love Demi the way they used to before everything that happened. Oh and also for all haters out there, you can try to bring her down, but Demi will be rising from the ground like a skyscraper. Haters gonna hate, anyway.

Demi Lovato is one of the best examples of person with a successful comeback, September 20th is the day when her brand new album "UNBROKEN" release, and she also has 2 concerts in LA (September 23) and NYC (September 17) which is called "An Evening With Demi Lovato".
So excited :D




Here is the official track-list of Unbroken:
1. All Night Long – featuring Missy Elliott and Timbaland
2. Who’s That Boy – featuring Dev
3. You’re My Only Shorty – featuring Iyaz
4. Together – featuring Jason Derulo
5. Lightweight
6. Unbroken
7. Fix a Heart
8. Hold Up
9. Mistake
10. Give Your Heart a Break
11. Skyscraper
12. In Real Life
13. My Love is Like a Star
14. For The Love of a Daughter
15. Skyscraper (Wizz Dumb Remix)

"Happy birthday, mother . . ."

Selamat ulang tahun, Mah.
Waktu itu benar-benar cepat, ini ucapanku yang ke-sekian untuk mendo'akan Mamah yang terbaik.
Semoga mamah diberikan umur yang panjang oleh Allah SWT untuk menyaksikanku wisuda, mengantarkanku menuju pernikahan, dan menjadi tempatku menimba ilmu membangun keluargaku sendiri nanti. Dan sampai aku tua nanti, Mamah masih tetap ada disampingku, adikku, dan suamimu.

Semoga Mamah selalu diberikan kesehatan lahir dan bathin. Karena kesehatanmu, adalah kesehatanku juga.

Semoga Allah melimpahkan rezeki yang tak henti-hentinya padamu. Selama ini Mamah selalu bekerja keras untuk menghidupi keluargamu, semoga uang yang kau keluarkan untuk memenuhi kebutuhanku, Allah lipat gandakan dengan rezeki yang lebih besar.

Semoga Allah TETAP menjadikanmu hamba-Nya yang tak kenal lelah, hamba-Nya yang selalu tegar dalam menghadapi cobaan, dan hamba-Nya yang selalu berbagi. Mamah adalah sumber inspirasiku, untuk selalu kuat.
Selamat ulang tahun, Mah.
Maaf aku pernah membuatmu sedih dan khawatir.
Aku, Fadhil, dan Bapa, selalu mendo'akanmu yang terbaik.
We love you . . .

REVIEW: Demi Lovato “Skyscraper”

Taken from : http://demilovatodaily.com/

With an incredible voice and two great albums under her belt, Demi Lovato reportedly headed into studio right after exiting a treatment centre, a smart move on her end. She had months of experiences to write and sing about. How well would they translate to song, though? Well, based on “Skyscraper,” the first offering from her upcoming third album, they translated fantastically. Co-written by Estonian “bubblegoth” singer, Kerli, and producer, Toby Gad (Selena Gomez “A Year Without Rain”, Fergie “Big Girls Don’t Cry”), “Skyscraper” seems like it was tailor made for Demi. With heartbreaking, yet optimistic lyrics placed over minimal yet emotionally effective production, the song seemed like the perfect opportunity for Lovato to emote, and emote, she certainly does.

"Skies are crying, I am watching,” she whispers in the first verse. “Catching teardrops in my hands.” Strangely befitting, she sounds vulnerable, almost broken, over a bare, piano-only backdrop. As the second verse resounds (“As the smoke clears, I awaken,”) she’s already regained most of her confidence and composure as the beat picks up, yet there’s still a hint of fragility in her voice, which diminishes as the song goes on. Until we reach the finale, that is; the final chorus.

The chorus in “Skyscraper” is arguably the best thing about the song. The creme de la creme, if you will. Heartbreaking yet optimistic, catchy yet powerful in substance, it stays with you for all the right reasons.

"You can take everything I have, you can break everything I am, like I’m made of glass, like I’m made of paper,” she dares us. “Go on and try to bring me down, I will be rising from the ground,” she then proclaims. “Like a skyscraper, like a skyscraper.”

The final rendition, however, is all the more mesmerizing. Openly weeping by the end of the song, it gives Lovato the edge to transform from Disney princess into fully-fledged, true musician. “Skyscraper” is a triumph for Demi Lovato in every sense; a triumphant return to the music industry, a triumphant return to prominence, and, above all, a triumphant emergence from the ashes.