Senin, 14 Oktober 2013

- 365 Wonderful Days -

Here we are standing on this precious time.
Still. . . On each other's arms.
We made it, idiot. One year. 365 ups and downs wonderful days.
Like no matter how many times I promise to be the better version of me for you, I still can't do that.
And no matter how many times you've made your promises to change for me, the changing won't ever be enough for me. 

Always breaking our own rules.

But beside all of that, we made it through after all this time. And guess what?! 
We survived.

Somebody said that life and relationship is not about how we make it through the storm, but it's about how we learn to dance in the rain.
So whatever coming for us ahead, we will make it through.

I'm sorry for my lack of trust on you. And THANK YOU SO MUCH for loving me with your annoying way, cause maybe I love you more with my more annoying way.

I'm not gonna promise that I can be better, but one thing for sure, I will try to be the best person I could be, day by day.

Happy 1st year anniversary, baby.
You are the most annoying, weird, idiot, silly guy I've ever met in my life.
But you are also the only guy I've ever cared this MUCH in my life.
Thank you for all the things we did together, all the fights, all the doubts, and all the memories you grew on my brain for a year.
It was beautiful.

I Love You. . .

Kamis, 05 September 2013

"When I was lost. I found you."

             I don't know either it's our own mistake or it's just them who can't stand how happy we are being together and be in each other arms.

            It takes me 20 years to know what's right for me, to know who will accept me along with my good, bad, or even my worst side.

          And then one day you came. You came out of nowhere, cause I didn't see you coming.  You complete something that have been  a big hole on my chest. You guide me to the fact knowing that I'm worthy enough to love someone and have them loving me back more.

           But people throw rocks at things that shine, don't they? 
          And the world is rotating. Sometimes we are in the air flying high. And there will be times we fall hard on the deep dark ground along with its nasty smell. 

          Always have those people who will push you back, make you feel bad about the whole wide world or yourself, and will try to tear you down. Then comes the time I really need to stand alone and hold on something that feels right even it means I have to fight the whole army.

           We win in our lost battle. But whenever we put our victory as high as the hawk, always have those magic wands make it breaks and burns. 

           But everyone feels the same, right? Just different level of hell and devils. And I don't mind cause all what I really need is staying true to myself and not giving even a little piece of shit on that.
          All the matters now is I have these good company who always be right beside me through the ups and downs. But most important is, they don't judge.

"Baby, you're not alone. I'm a good warrior. So when the heavy world falls on your shoulder, I'll be there, fight with you. I'm not gonna promise the storms wont come, but whenever the bad times come, I'll be in every beats of your heart and hold you tight. . .  ."

Jumat, 29 Maret 2013

A Special Night With Demi Lovato

You can tell that Demi Lovato has been and always will be my favorite singer ever. And I've seen this quote "Dreams do come true" all my life, and YES, DREAMS DO COME TRUE you all. On March 24 I. MET. DEMI. LOVATO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I never know how it feels like to meet someone you look up to so freaking much, and meet someone who inspire you in so many ways. I honestly hard to remember how it feels like that day, because the amount of happiness and craziness was collide. Like, I can't imagine, all this time I just see her on my tv screen, or internet, twitter, or something like that, but that day, she was just 5 feets away from me and I could see her face clearly. She is so freaking beautiful and stunning. Her skin was flawless. And when you thought you just can hear her voice through your headset, I just can't describe how great her LIVE voice was. She killed all the high notes in all her amazing songs.  

As all people that know I adore Demi Lovato maybe don't know about this. I love Demi not because her beautiful face and amazing voice and songs, maybe at first YES, but when she shared her story about how she stands up for bullying and how she dealt with eating disorders because of cruel society but can stand up higher and get help and get better and better that moment when the amount of my respect for her increase. She also decided to share her story instead of lying about it to the media so she could help another girl who deal with the same issue to get help and get better. She inspires me to always feel beautiful and to not letting people bring me down. 

I can't believe that I could have this opportunity to hear her sang Skyscraper LIVE because that song gave me big impact  of my perpective on something. 
And also Give Your Heart a Break, Heart Attack, and all of her songs too, and all I can tell is SHE GOT THAT VOICE and ATTITUDE!

Thank you Demi, for everything you though me and for this amazing experience to see you live in concert. Maybe I didnt get a lesson about how to bring myself up, how to always feel beautiful, and how to accept my imperfection, but through you and your story, I could. 
And btw, can I have that boots?

Demi on stage in Jakarta

Demi at soundcheck in Jakarta

Demi on stage in Manila

Demi on stage in Manila (with her famous hair flip)

Jumat, 08 Februari 2013

"21 Guns" By Green Day

Do you know what's worth fighting for?
When it's not worth dying for?
Does it take your breath away and you feel yourself suffocating?
Does the pain weigh out the pride?
And you look for a place to hide?
Did someone break your heart inside,you're in ruins

One, 21 Guns
Lay down your arms
Give up the fight
One, 21 Guns
Throw up your arms into the sky
You and I ...

When you're at the end of the road
And you lost all sense of control
And your thoughts have taken their toll
When your mind breaks the spirit of your soul
Your faith walks on broken glass and the hangover doesn't pass
Nothing's ever built to last, you're in ruins

One, 21 Guns
Lay down your arms
Give up the fight
One, 21 Guns
Throw up your arms into the sky
You and I ...

Did you try to live on your own?
When you burned down the house and home?
Did you stand too close to the fire?
Like a liar looking for forgiveness from a stone
When it's time to live and let die
And you can't get another try
Something inside this heart has died,you're in ruins

One, 21 Guns
Lay down your arms
Give up the fight
One, 21 Guns
Throw up your arms into the sky
One, 21 Guns
Lay down your arms
Give up the fight
One, 21 Guns
Throw up your arms into the sky

You and I

Senin, 04 Februari 2013

"Istimewa Itu Kamu. . ."

"Jika aku adalah selembar kertas kosong
Berarti kamu itu crayon berwarna. . ."

"Jika aku adalah langit gelap
Berarti kamu itu bintang. . ."

Jika aku terkadang buta akan apa yang sebenarnya ingin ku katakan padanya,
Tuhan. . .
sampaikan bahwa aku bersyukur ia 'datang'

sampaikan padanya jika aku memiliki kekuatan super, aku bisa membantunya lebih daripada ini

sampaikan padanya bahwa ia menginspirasiku untuk menjadi lebih baik dan dewasa

sampaikan padanya bahwa masalah yang datang, bukan untuk menghancurkan, tapi memperkuat

sampaikan padanya bahwa segala kemarahanku, bukan karena benci, tapi peduli

sampaikan padanya bahwa ia adalah seseorang yang mampu membantuku berdiri dan melawan dunia

sampaikan padanya bahwa segala memori yang ia tancapkan diotak-ku itu indah

sampaikan padanya bahwa ketika mereka melihat rendah kearahnya, I'm not going anywhere

sampaikan padanya bahwa ia istimewa

sampaikan padanya bahwa ia bisa taklukan dunia ; )

sampaikan padanya bahwa kerja keras dan membuktikan kesuksesan suatu hari nanti adalah cara terbaik untuk balas dendam

sampaikan padanya bahwa aku ingin mengenalnya hingga rambutnya memutih

sampaikan bahwa aku mencintainya. . .

"Tuhan, tidak ada lagi tempat untuk menampung segala pilu with a fair judgement rather than You.
Lindungilah dia. . .
Kelilingi dia dengan segala yang terbaik
Mudahkanlah segala urusan-nya, Tuhan. . ."

Dear you my unbelievable guy, 
I'm happy to know the fact that you are mine and you stay with me until now. There will be times when I'll feel weak and hopeless, but you are my strength  and I'm going to live my life day by day knowing that I have one person I can count on and knowing I have a shoulder to cry on. 

With you, I have courage for standing tall to see the whole world.
Thank you. . .